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nonconathon 2023 letter
Wow, it's that time of the year again! Hello, thanks for writing for me and a disclaimer up ahead, everything except the dnws is a kind suggestion. Do as you please, really, go nuts. I don't care how weird it gets, I welcome it. And I'm always happier if you write something you're comfortable with.
In the context of noncon I don't enjoy ravishing, so the sort of really good fuck someone didn't initially want but got anyway and halfway through they are just like "hell yeah, this sex rocks!" The victim doesn't have to be completely unaroused and I also like forced arousal to humiliate or just arousal that's upsetting to the victim, and all sorts of states of mindless bliss achieved at the breaking point, masochistic delights of pain so bad it turns into pleasures, but generally I read from a sicko mindset where I'm here for the victim's distress, not their no-strings-attached pleasure.
I like obscene, grotesque or plain disgusting things described beautifully. Flowers and blood and filth. Sometimes the more awkward, uncomfortable, “real” the sex, the better. It does not have to be glorified or even sexy. I like subtly upsetting things, but I also like the plain lizard brain fantasy of doing something bad wrong to some cute/hot guy. It's sadism, plain and simple.
My id goes bonkers about a strong characters (noble, uptight, stoic, arrogant, proud) losing control, being tested and broken - although more precicely I really like "half-broken" states. Defiant in their downfall, physically ruined but spiritually ecstatic, anything where my fav still shows their strength despite or because of their ruin. Yes, I'm looking disrespectfully at the Catholic church. Because I like to see my favs hanging at the breaking point, I am not much into super long drawn out enslavement, reconditioning, gradual mind break stuff, where they are completely irrecognizable and submissive in the end.
My id goes bonkers about a strong characters (noble, uptight, stoic, arrogant, proud) losing control, being tested and broken - although more precicely I really like "half-broken" states. Defiant in their downfall, physically ruined but spiritually ecstatic, anything where my fav still shows their strength despite or because of their ruin. Yes, I'm looking disrespectfully at the Catholic church. Because I like to see my favs hanging at the breaking point, I am not much into super long drawn out enslavement, reconditioning, gradual mind break stuff, where they are completely irrecognizable and submissive in the end.
I like female on male rape which works specifically on "the mind is strong, the flesh is weak" but violent penetrative assault is also fun and indulging the female urge to rip and tear and finger and peg and sit on a face is hot too. I'm perfectly happy with more "normal" and gentle femdom that works on mental and emotional discomfort, but there is also a lack of really brutal crude femdom, so if that's up your alley, I'd love to read it.
Generally speaking, penetrative sex is not what interests me most, it's about emotional torment, also about the subtle things and the aesthetics, so I won't feel underwhelmed if it's just a couple lines or they don't touch on all the bases or it focuses on the aftermath. The minimum bar for what I consider a "sexual act" as per nonconathon rules is very low.
Likes
Smut:
Opt-Ins
Things many people DNW and I don't mind.
- hand holding, hand kissing, neck touches, chaste kisses, displays of fealty
- hierarchies, abuse of power, stifling environments, coded language, uniforms
- obscene, grotesque, disgusting things
- tormented saints, martyrdom, self-sacrifice
- transgression, transformation
- the breaking point, catharsis, awakenings, trauma
- victims trying to ignore/hide what happened and failing dramatically
- innocence spoiled, the violation of ace/celibate characters
- cheerful sadism, affection mixed with brutality (as mockery or because the perpetrator just thinks the victim is cute)
- rapist pov
- the victim's exhaustion, loss of control over the body, involuntary reactions, loss of consciousness
- victims ending up covered in mud or other filth
- manhandling, overpowering, beating victims into submission
- (forced) arousal resulting in humiliation
- internalized homophobia
- crying, whimpering, trembling
- wound fingering, blood loss, disembowelment, strangulation
- salacious/sadistic/horny caretaking by the rapist or a third party
- pastiche, archaic language, unusual form
- unreliable narrators, outsider POV
- letters, diary entries, events relayed in conversation
Smut:
I like any level of explicit, from the crude to the flowery. I have a general purpose list of smut things that interest me here.
Opt-Ins
Things many people DNW and I don't mind.
- unaroused victim
- watersports, scat, vomit
- poorly lubricated anal
- painful sex & injury
- self harm
- rapist POV
- 1st person POV
- setting/character-appropriate *phobias and *isms (with exception of transphobia)
- victim doomed to be raped forever
- victim permanently mindbroken
- long term conditioning of victim
- trans rapists & victims
- ravishing & "no, no, yes" (after some protest victim really gets into it and has a good time)
- on screen underage (<16) noncon
- current politics
- terminal illness, cancer, dementia, amnesia, Alzheimer's, brain damage (all mentions are okay)
- AUs with the exception of canon divergence
- mpreg, pregnancy (mentions are okay, breeding dirty talk is okay)
- alpha/beta/omega (and similar worldbuilding with assigned roles/biodeterminism)
- focus on formalized aspects of bdsm (formal negotiations, safewords, traffic light system, people identifying as dom/sub)